And if i had wings i would fly...

and i will soar on wings like eagles everyday of my life...Saturday, Sept. 13, 2003

-trust His heart-

pple arnd me are all feeling depressed now... just look at this

All things work for our good though sometimes we can't see how they could.

Struggles that break our hearts in two sometimes blind us to the truth.

Our Father knows what's best for us; His ways are not our own.

So, when your pathway grows dim, and you just can't see Him,

Remember He's still on the throne.

God is too wise to be mistaken. God is too good to be unkind.

So when you don't understand, when you don't see His plan,

When you can't trace His hand, trust His heart.

He sees the Master plan. He holds the future in His hands.

So don't live as those who have no hope. All our hope is found in Him.

We walk in present knowledge, but He sees the first and the last.

And like a tapestry, He's weaving you and me to someday be just like Him.

TRUST HIS HEART.

i'm not trying to be sympathetic or sth. just wanted to share this with all out there.

be still... 2:52 p.m.
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and i will soar on wings like eagles everyday of my life...Monday, Aug. 18, 2003

-raining room...-

sheesh.. raining.. roomm... hmm.. i need help!!!! my stoopiac neighbour is like doing comstruction..!!

1) so noisy

2) oh this is bad... my room is raining!!!

ok.. like this: the neighbours like did sth. to MY roof and for many nights it started RAINING!!! hm... and then so... it RAINED not leaked on top of me when i'm sleeping.!! so how's that huh? hmm.. and it's super dirty water.. cos it goes throught the construction adn all that.. hmm. it's BLACK.! and i mean RAIN! and not DROPS!!! hm. gotta live with it.. hmm

and my big bro's complaining.. he's got As so... how to study?

a)so noisy

b)so wet.. hmm.

life's like that.
be still... 9:03 p.m.
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and i will soar on wings like eagles everyday of my life...Monday, Aug. 11, 2003

-2100-

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i LOve that phone.. don't you think it's nice ahha jkj
be still... 9:34 p.m.
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and i will soar on wings like eagles everyday of my life...Sunday, Aug. 03, 2003

-hurmph-

don't feel insulted whoever's reading this >_< haha hey guys. i might consider locking this up... hurmph. i found out that some pple actually read my blog without my knowing *hey you out there.. i noe you're reading this* although i don't know how you got here... i tell you, i'll find out. hehe muahaha. aniwae.hardly anibody comes here aniwae... eh. then you don't knoe how to leave a msg arh... waste my precious time ydae.

-_- yesterday go one big circle to tell me you did... not supposed to read. this is only for my close close frens ..are YOU? NO!! haha... better stop.. k..... hmm.. i told you it was private.... piack.. i've got new cursor.. hmm. not tt i like ghosts or believe them. haha and hey YOU... i tell you why i spell your name like dat..:yujin... i don't like kyour name and it's an eyesore (so is the person.. *who keeps shooting me.*....).. >_< haha (: bye
be still... 8:11 a.m.
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and i will soar on wings like eagles everyday of my life...Saturday, Jul. 26, 2003

-tired.-

heyesh.. was told to update.. today went. njc sigma science fair. we came late and missed it.. -_- such a pity. andden went to coronation to CA's favourite restaurant.. hmm. weriously, she called it her favourite not bcoz she like the food but coz she liked the FREE flow of drinks... erhm.. CA.. you make no sense. aha and then we went to the HWA chong debate finals.. MG ~~lost~~ hmm. not very good eh.. ahha jkjk. and yep. so ACSI won RI. not very exciting. but CA was so agitated in everything that was happening. oh no.. i 4got to return sth. to vlen. ah.. nvm. it's the name tag. CA passed it to me to keep.. 4got arh. hmm. Vicky Martin was like seeking ~~attentn~~.. taking pictures and stuff ahah quite funny.. aniwae. i just came home. past few days was quite ok. and yep.. no time. to write my own manual diary.. hmm. so busy and there's chi and lit test next week!!!!!!! wendy ng so last minute. see larh tonight must remember to collect my book from class ..

i;'m going for the gift of music lter not like i want to go.. hope i can hitch a free ride home. don't want to take bus.. *pig0*.. aja ha lk. tt's al for now. can wait to go church tmr.. hey btw, church is not some social centre.. .. ahah lal
be still... 4:30 p.m.
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and i will soar on wings like eagles everyday of my life...Thursday, Jul. 17, 2003

-i dont' noe...-

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eeeewks ACSi. haha ok. erm..i was thinking about the august 11 chapel. it's coming very very soon. and deanna's still so chin chye about it. sigh----- i mean what's with deanna.. she's been not doing work lately. and not very serious about events coming up. last min-- i'd say. yupe dunno larh. i really try very vyery hard and pray about it. i just can't decide. i don't noe what's in store for us. i don't noe what's in for us to do. i don't noe what is it that we are supposed to work on. i don't noe what relations we put into the songs. i dont' noe if deanna can inspire. i don't noe if things will be what God wants it to be. don't noe if deanna would relax and think about it: what actually is good for our school chapel. i don't noe if she could just think about it- whether she could share a word. i don't noe if we have time to practise.wait. i don't even noe whether we should practise or not. i don't noe who is our co and worship leaders. i don't noe if the band contains the right pple. wait. i don't noe who is in the band aniwae. i don't noe whether melanie should play. or rather. i dont' noe if melanie would be over-reactive to the situation if she finds out that she's not playing. i don't noe why mel's so sensitive. wait wait wait. i don't even noe why we were called upon to share in worship in the first place...

"everything's alright" yeah. it sure is.
be still... 3:58 p.m.
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and i will soar on wings like eagles everyday of my life...Monday, Jul. 14, 2003

-guilt.-

hey.;. in school now. today was like the first day of school. i'm sad that sunday had gone so fast. school's in now. i'm so pissed with myself. i was so angry with someone and yet tt person feels guilty for making me angy. hello now. who's the guilty one. i just couldn't get a hold of myself i'm so angry with myself. oh no. icant be angry ok. oh and chapel was led by karen. it was quite good. one of the best ever held in mg by our own girls. at least karen can lead the school. i just felt like crying. for all the wrong stuff. the whole time. just prayed. prayers are very powerful in deed. the guilt in me is just so strange. never b4.. even during geography. i just wasnt my usual self. even with gasper around. sooo bothered by al the things happening : what happened yesterday ( don't know why) and 2d chapel. (just don't want to disappoint anybody. i don't want to hurt mel by telling her bout e arragements for chapel. she's quite sensitive) ah man... i was also bothered with song writing again with melanie. she's like always want to do what i do... sigh.. aniwae tt's solved.. pple! dont be surprised if you see amelia instead haha ok in sch mep room now haha ok bb
be still... 4:05 p.m.
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and i will soar on wings like eagles everyday of my life...Sunday, Jul. 13, 2003

-ym sunday.-

hey.. phileotheos was in for the adult Prayer and Praise service this morning and yesterday night. i think it was a great and fulfilling for me. it certainly has gotten me to know more pple better. and yes. being in the band sometimes can be quite fun. and sometimes you just want to leave immediately.. i really don't know. yesterday after service i went DON to eat well. yujin wanted to treat me (: but i didn't finish my food so in the end didn't treat me ahha and then jo bought roses for eveyone haha. but it's dying already *boohoo* ahha it's pink.. and

the underside of the leaves are purplish. ahha so weird. sgih. and then today. went for lunch . nono it's this way: i was asked to go.. for lunch.. and there wwere like 12 of us. n i unfortunately got to sit with karen sarah cheng and a few others.. yupe.. tt was the time i really felt like tleaving the place ok.. i mean. what are they talking about. noth to do with me. i wanted to sit somewhere else but had no choice. made me feel out of place.. yujin shld'nt even have asked me along. hiyarh. you just made me feel worse.. so after eating i left like early. then i was like "thanks arh. for bringing me here..-_- " i mean it really was meaningless. the food was so ex and yarh. sigh. CAFE Cartel.. then i left then yujin called me and apologised. wait. nono that person said : u angry arh... wahlau i almost said yes ok..

hm... but i still think it was a great worship larh. we did get quite a lot of encouragement from the congregation though.. it was fun time. but time-consuming now i have only a few hours left to complete my hw.. (:
be still... 7:27 p.m.
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and i will soar on wings like eagles everyday of my life...Thursday, Jul. 10, 2003

-guides-

hey finally i even bothered to updatee (: haha yes and it's so unfair! the ginseng group and the jap rose grp are going to biotech.. my stoopiac pitcher plant grp is not confirmed going. the seeds take a loooooong time to grow ok... sigh.. i'll just like wait.----- and yes.. wait---- like this.

oh i 4got to pass germlim her requuested-- the letter ahha ok.. i didn't wanto to do it. well she asked for it.. .. sigh...

oh and i was given a new quiet time material (not like i always do it.) i guess i'll get 'routined' to it.. (i pray it is so).. ahha on tue during band prac.. so many band prac. tmr also have sat also have sunday also .aha ok.. i'ts a lot buut.. it's quite ok.. relaxing. can ~~4get~~ bout sch stuff but onli temporarily.. haha 'stress-relieving' centre ahha good for me. ah ok. guides yesterday.. drill.. hot. afternoon. sun. and then like aft guides i had no idea why Yo was so like pissed with the rest of the 5plets wait. i'm writing this coz i noe shes not coming to read this aniwaey. but what's wrong. ? i we didn't do anithing. when this happens she always lke goes to the sec ones and 4s and like seem so happy with them.. it's not very nice.. i mean it's not putting us into a good positiln... yo: please don't do this to us.. wev we have done. sorry k.? whether or not it's valen, shing CA or me haha ok.. well.. hope you're really not reading this yupe,, if not. 'die'...
be still... 5:38 p.m.
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and i will soar on wings like eagles everyday of my life...Saturday, Jun. 28, 2003

-trust.-

lyrics.

God is too wise to be mistaken

God is too good to be unkind

So when you don't understand

When you can't see His plan

When you can't trace His hand

Trust His Heart...

ooh.. hah it's the chorus of a song. . i came across it yesterday and couldn't sleep... ooz.. kept singing it it's stuck in my head ahah ..

maybe i have no one to trust.. like friends.. can't be trusted ahah .'trust His heart.. haha ..eheheh ooz.. haha ok.. ta tc everyone
be still... 5:12 p.m.
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and i will soar on wings like eagles everyday of my life...Monday, Jun. 23, 2003

-prac.-

hey.. i've got band practice today at 6 to 10 and for the next 2 mondays as well... hah ok and i just got the news at like 12 am last night.. (i mean this morning) ok,,, that eugene person asked me to call him and he told me.. a bit late hor... wait those of you who start thinking wai.. eugene is someone from my church er.. 20.. he's 20 *hinhint to those despos out there* right.. those of you who were telling me that the bass guitarist who was cute during DJW.. well, tt's the one.. haha talk so much... beah

aniwae. i don't noe why i'm always so excited to go for band prac... hm..

maybe coz everyone there's just warm and friendly and coz ttt's the house of God.. yeah. and yeah.. i really dont' noe.. i just sort of like 4get all sort of unhappy things.. yeah... it's just so warm when i step in there.. hm.. i just hope tt.. yeah. nvm.. you pple don't noe what i'm talking about .. haha . aniwae.. i'm really glad tt everybody's given me a chancce to serve at YM.. it's great larh. at least i get to noe the pple there better.. and also i think that. maybe i'm just closer to God then i was last year or the beginning of this year.. maybe hey you pple out there don't seem to realise it. oh well.. pple , i think tt you too shld join and serve your own church in a committee and yearh. and it sure is great for you and your future yeah.. i guess tt's all i have to sae now (:

'You are more than enough for me'- One Day
be still... 1:29 p.m.
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